This last week has been a really tough one for me, I’ve had to make a decision that would potentially change the course of my whole life. Hence a lot of poetry about decisions :). The whole process has brought up a lot of anxiety, this mainly I believe because I’ve had to spend all this time contemplating the future rather than living in the now,(as I prefer to do). Unfortunately at some times we can not be totally in the now and it is necessary to plan for the future.
I have had to face a decision on whether to let go of all I had gained in the last year and 4 months. Those of you who have read my post ‘ One Little Moment , One Transformational Year’ may have picked up on how meaningful this time was for me. Essentially it has been so meaningful that nothing in me wanted to give it up, other than fear of what the future may hold and those niggling doubts of whether I can actually make my dream work.
However, much stronger than this doubt and fear has been this inner driving force that I feel I now have, something that I had lacked for several years previous. This driving force is one that really comes from the heart and one that I’m having to learn to trust in completely because I know that from this space life is far more beautiful and flows in a way that is at times difficult to describe, life in this way is on a far better or higher level than any time when we are living from should’s , external expectations or fear.
As Steve Jobs said; ‘It’s as though our hearts somehow already know what we want to become.’
Living from the heart somehow overshadows the fears or doubts in our life and brings with it only passion, realisation, beauty and truth even in the most difficult moments. This is something that I can not let go of now I have found it and so I will follow my heart and passion in hope to inspire others to find and do the same. Whatever the future holds we can not know, all we can do is make the best causes in now and learn to trust in the truth of our hearts.
Trusting completely in myself I believe is a key part of my journey and it has made me realise too that there maybe many of us who struggle to follow our true passion and live from our hearts, because perhaps the external circumstances at the time do not support this decision. Looking at many people who have had to make such decisions in their lives, in their circumstances it is often just as difficult. They have sometimes risked losing everything for the sake of following their heart and dreams, The Rocky Story is one that immediately comes to mind and there are many more of them.
When we make a daring decision to follow our heart and dreams we can sometimes find that those we hoped or thought may support us don’t or they take some time to come round to it, I have seen this happen for myself and to friends, some of whom then become discouraged because of this negativity or doubt. I don’t believe our friends and family or others try to mean harm by this, I think it’s more that it brings up their own fears and doubts of what they could do but aren’t doing or haven’t done, on the plus side, the opposite can also happen where we can then inspire them to do this too. What Marianne Williams said in ‘Our Deepest Fear’ that It is our light that most frightens us.’ I know now to be so true, but fear doesn’t have to stop us in any decision or circumstance, unless we choose to allow it to.
Given this, I choose to follow my heart with every step and to focus on inspiring others to do the same whilst also focusing on those who do so already and who encourage me to do the same. So I’m taking this leap of faith and trusting in my heart completely and after recognising the need for belief and support when making this type of decision I’d like to put a suggestion out there;
To all those who follow their heart or are looking to make that step, if you are ever struggling give me a shout and I’ll be an ear to listen to you and to help you rekindle that belief in you just as others have done for me over the last year and much more so recently. On a larger scale as many of us on here are of the same mind-set of following our hearts and dreams, why not have a WP belief network where we can all encourage each other even more than we do already. Who knows what amazing things we can achieve when we all support and encourage each other in this way?
My main message from this experience for anyone reading this would be;
Never give up on your dreams,
No matter how difficult it may seem,
It doesn’t matter if others don’t believe in you
Believe in you and your truth;
Then you are sure to find others who will do too
~ M.L.Adams
Thank you for reading,
Miranda
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